Thanks, Darsky, a lot of very wise and comforting words. Yes, I have found a hobby that I am addicted to (Diamond Painting) and I also have my outdoor ponds and gardens and will be out there a lot once the weather starts cooperating. For the first 3 weeks of "retirement" I ran myself ragged remodeling a room and felt great - it's this "relax and enjoy having no chores or deadlines" that I struggle with. Everyone's advice is very helpful, but I guess the suggestion I have the most trouble with is accepting and allowing the symptoms. I really have no idea how to do that since I have been conditioned to panic when I feel the panic starting, and yes, now I bring them on by checking for their presence all the time. OK, I guess that's my goal for today..... let it happen, feel it, don't fight it and don't get angry with it. Wish me luck!
Sue